Unless you have thigh gap and clearly defined collar bones, OR you’ve done some strong personal affirmation work, as a dancer you WILL worry about your weight. Even being super thin already is not a guarantee against wishing for another pound or ten less on your frame.
Nevertheless I should know better. I have been worried about my weight for almost as long as I can remember. I was never a lanky kid. I have always been round. And It was obvious especially when I danced in jr high and high school. I didn’t look as good in our costumes as everyone else seemed to. But as an adult who has been dancing for more than twenty years now, I should know better than to fall into the trap of just complain about my weight.
Its hard because I feel like I’ve been working on it for so long, but a lot of that work is mental and I have some demons buried deep, deep inside, wrapped in an iron sheet of old habits and ideas about myself.
So while I was editing my first video about my summer with US International Ballet Company I felt bad about how much I talked about my weight and my weight loss strategies. While this has been a theme on this blog with my experiments with various diets and fasting, I feel like I made that whole two weeks seem like one big fat loos project, when the real focus was on dancing and supporting kids during their first workshop away from home.
So while I still have a lot of work to do inside and out, I want to make my future posts more positive and ballet focused, with fat loss (or “cutting” as fitness models and body builders say) there as a tool, not the final goal.